Final Project
Maddy
Click the "buttons" on the canvas to scrub through.
I have always been unique in the way I have interests, I think. Some people grow up liking one thing. Others outsource a singular interest and have multiple—almost like a collection.
Me? I can only ever have one at a time.
I have interests—obsessions, if you will—of only one thing at a time. No matter how much time I spend being interested in one, singular thing, I am very quick to dispose of it the moment I move on.
It's frustrating, really.
I could spend the previous 7 months of my life indulging Spider-man, as one example. Comics, video games, shows, movies, figures, plushies, whatnot - nearly everything revolved around that one interest.
And, yet, the moment I move on—whether it be due to the slow extinguishment of my passion; or, perhaps it gets replaced with a shiny, brand-new toy, I will lose almost any and all interest for my previous obsession.
All money and time wasted, it feels.
Nonetheless, this project is not supposed to reflect my interests so... pessimistically. I find that the characters I do end up "obsessing" over shape me into who I am and what I do today.
Not to confuse "obsessions" with... attraction, as it has randomly been assumed before (multiple times) by others. Which has been a problem for me, because I firmly believe it is tied in the fact I am perceived as feminine—though, that's another problem for another day.
On the contrary, I obsess over these characters because I see myself in them.
What really draws me to any media is the relatability of a character. Representation—may it be trauma, morals, ideals, personality, illnesses, gender, etc.—is very important to me.
People are very complex. There are so many in this world. There are so many differences among us. I think it is a beautiful thing to capture the very essence of what makes us... well, us.
And whether that very essence is captured in another human, albeit fictitious, or perhaps a 15-foot-tall robot that transforms into a Porsche 911 Carrera RS 3.8 - it still represents someone in the world.
And when that someone just happens to be me,
only then is that spark created.
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p.s., I (clearly) did not finish the drawings - I overestimated my free time. Though, I did still complete the core (coding) part of this—and it was not easy. Apologies.
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